Absolute

Thankful.

To my 2 buddies.

Thank you Tanny.

For always being there for me, even with all your problems. You are always the first person I confide to and to look for solutions for all my problems. 

Thank you Yean.

For always keeping me in your thoughts and be there when i need to unwind. (Although usually very very very very late.)

I am really touch by your post.

Thanks for just being there.

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I haven't been talking to anyone for the past 2 weeks.

Not to my parents, not to family.

I'm not even talking much to myself either.

I just shut myself away recently.

I dunno what happen also, but i just feel very bottled up.

No, i'm not emo.

I think it's the pills.

ahh heck.

All i do now is sms and msn to her.

At least she is making me happy for now.

Adios pple.

Need to find.

I'm an official pills popper.

I need nice, really nice pills case to house all my pills.

If anyone sees a really nice designer looking one, pls buzz me.

Eat pills also must got style maaaa...

Did you?

Did you ask me How's my work today?

Did you ask me if i'm still having headache?

Did you ask me if I'm feeling tired from all stress i'm facing?

No.

Cause you never attempt to.

How would you even know?

Why I couldn't try to start the topic?

Because you only see them and the TV.

Why even bother.

Did I tell you that all i need is a good night sleep from all the pills i'm taking?

Heck no.

Did i mention that all i need is a peace of mind?

Heck no.

Why?

Didn't you?

Tired.

I really am.

I'm tired of being judged for voicing out at home.

I'm tried of being the one that have to provide everything at home, and all I get is unreasonable attitude.

I'm tired of keeping all my problems to myself, so as not to worried any of them.

But they are not seeing it.

I'm tired of not getting any rest when i gets home from work.

I'm tired of listening to Taiwan news on the TV.

I'm tired of being at home.

I'm tired of trying so hard to be a good man.

I'm tired of living my life.

I'm tired of being tired.

Please let me rest.

Just for once.

See me as a family.

见底了。

近来身体状况非常不佳。

1） 去年10月的手术， 不顺利。有可能会再动刀。

2）头。头真的很痛。痛到很想死。 做了几个身体检查，脑部扫描。 要再等报告出来才知道原因。But。。。 心也很痛。应为看医生是(*&($*$(*^%#67 的贵！！ 全部是给cash. Cannot Claim.

So, if there's any freelance, please let me know.

AHhah.

Mandy> GOT MA?? Ask Janice leh...........

回来了。

哇。 很久没po了。

有好多东西要update.

*impromptu reaction while typing and watching American Idol. Paula Abdul really sucks.

Firstly, 旺福终于来开唱！

High 到一个离奇的境界。

一直都很喜欢他们的歌，听了肯定疯癫乱跳， 失魂鬼叫。

真的。

应为我隔天失声。

哇哈哈！

Secondly, 

刚刚出席了好友的婚礼。

哦。。 了不起么。

当然！ 

达飞机到 Jakarta leh.

First time fly all the way to another country just to attend a wedding.

给足了面子。

Vera and Tri, Congrats!!

在印尼，

碰上了许多朋友，感觉很棒。

有些还是听闻了许久， 终于见面。

Dedi, Hendut and mei's family.

非常可爱的一群疯子。

哈哈。

肯定的是， 我爱上了印尼人的热情。

也已答应mei's father, Papa Ujang, 明年在去他家玩！

听mei 说， 新家是大到不行。

还蛮期待的。

－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－

最后， 我好像恋上了她。

and confirm not meimei hor.