Please help me.

I have lost all my 10yrs msn contacts...

I amazed myself with my stupidity. 

So please update or add me at mike_max@live.com

Also...help me pass around mutual friends.

namely, Polys friends, ex-colleagues and family.

thanks all.

Kaboom!

Third Tier Club

Was chatting with one fellow member on the newly form Third Tier Club, and it's funny how we both agree so much on how dispensable we are!!

We are however indispensable to each other ( i think so hor goose..).

So 3 cheers to the club!
Hur hur hur.

At times like these...

I just want to escape from everything.

No. I not emo.

It's weird to admit and even recognise that, i might be suffering from mild depression.

I dun think friends can help me anymore, cos I'm really numb from hearing "Quit your job lah.." or " Take it easy..Dont work too hard." 

I always ponder to myself...If i ever quit my job. How am i going to support myself? 

I'm going for my 8th and 9th op in Dec. Yes. 

It's been a hell journey for me.

I'm really sick of thinking about how I'm able to secure my current job with my condition.

And I'm more sick to explain what is goin on with my life.

In conclusion, I'm not having any suicide thoughts yet, although i do think death is less painful for now.

I'm just feeling that, nothing is working for me, and no matter how hard i fight, I end up losing more than before.

I hope i will get through this phrase soon, cos I dunno how much i can hold it any longer.

I'm not insignificant.

Don't vent your anger on me because you lack of
• Morale

• Self esteem

• Confidence

• Judgement 

Get a grip of yourself before you even question about my stands.

I'm seriously sick of all these pure nonsense.

Don't diss me off because you freaking think you are more superior than me.

I'm not retaliating because I'm showing you the last pinch of respect I can find in myself.

Seriously, you are not that worthy. Don't push it too far.

I'm trying to get peace within myself. 

Escaping all kind of unnecessary stress that could possibly trigger my constant headache and tolerance level.

I haven been talking at home for 4 months.

I haven been sitting in the living room for 4 months.

I haven even been eating at the dining table for 4 months.

Am I feeling ok?

Of cos not.

Do i feel good about all the silence?

Yes, cause it took all the stress away. Not having to talk keeps my head more leveled.

Does anyone cared?

Nope.

Cos I'm insignificant.

That's who I am.