No. I not emo.
It's weird to admit and even recognise that, i might be suffering from mild depression.
I dun think friends can help me anymore, cos I'm really numb from hearing "Quit your job lah.." or " Take it easy..Dont work too hard."
I always ponder to myself...If i ever quit my job. How am i going to support myself?
I'm going for my 8th and 9th op in Dec. Yes.
It's been a hell journey for me.
I'm really sick of thinking about how I'm able to secure my current job with my condition.
And I'm more sick to explain what is goin on with my life.
In conclusion, I'm not having any suicide thoughts yet, although i do think death is less painful for now.
I'm just feeling that, nothing is working for me, and no matter how hard i fight, I end up losing more than before.
I hope i will get through this phrase soon, cos I dunno how much i can hold it any longer.
5 comments:
hey....
I just want to give u a really big big hugz la...I'll be there for u alright? Pls call me whenever u needed someone hor...
may be is normal to designer's life...unhappy or treat urself unwell doesn't help, u should treat urself better.
actually no big deal to leave a job, since u are a talented person..sometime, love urself more, ignore wat other "worth nothing" person saying or rushing you, will make urself more release..juz to take things lighter..
Life for wk, and not work like a slaves...
Add oil!
No worries.
I'm feeling alright now.
It's not purely abt work, it's a great mixture of everyday errands.
Thanks all for the concern!!
After a good talk with a Fatherly Man, I've seen a greater picture.
I'm alright.
~HUGS~
You're right about friends who can't help u. Cos how could they when even U yourself can't do it. Life sucks ! Thats a fact. It also depends on what u think SUCKS lor ?Like we can say we've got F---ed Up family .... but what about those ppl without family ????? Evrything can be viewed at a different angle. Having an illness and pain is suffering for sure !!! But for some, having no pain is suffering too u know? A girl born with no pain receptors bled to her death as she didn't even know she was bleeding. Bro, try to look at things from another angle. Start with changing your BLOG into JD's white world and not black.
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